Be encouraged, Shanelle. God's word tells us that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Heb 11:6). Believe on His Word. He wants to save you more than anything. Give Him your whole heart. You lose nothing when you give God all of you....in fact, you GAIN everything....all things that pertain to LIFE and GODLINESS is what you will receive. Believe on His promises!