Every day I come and log on to see if there are any new messages, and everyone is so quiet, I do understand our lives are so full and buisy but there is a very hungry person inside me,I am also getting discouraged with my own self I never have anything very philosophical to say.I wish we could have more interaction a joining of minds to keep us going when it gets tough,well love to all ,and sincerely hope everyone everywhere is good. Sr Margaret.

I have oft wondered if I could tell, just from a persons voice, rather he/she was honest and sincere. Not being socialble and disdaining business as much as possible gives me scant chanced to experiment in this. Besides people SEE their own world in a personible way and may be perfectly honest in a perverted way.

To say the least my studies in math, machine shop, electronics and computers dont help me here. I cant even think about this without getting anxious. That is exactly why I wondered if the Rosicrucain studies would help. I found out I wasnt ready for this but it is coming out in strange ways very gradually.

That is about as philosopical as I can get: all life is becoming an experiment to me. Given the results I recieve in my metaphysical studies it doesnt pay off very well at all but that is to be expected when you attempt your worst disabillities. I now know where I need the exercise the most and where my muscles are the most under developed.

But I still love metal and precision! Yeah bring on the stock so I can be as cold and tough as the things I make!

Did I just say that?!

>george

Well George I dont quite know how to interpret you ....You are probably not as cold as you see yourself, I almost blew a brain gasket reading your message and Eyore from winnie the pooh popped into my mind HEE HEE! you are cool! I study as much as I can between nursing in the veterans home and teenagers and Life and dues I get so frustrated I am just trying in my little corner to shed some light on others my kids and help my friends This communication helps me feel connected to something bigger that gives me strength and insight to others and myself. we got to stick together like links in a chain. Love Sr.Margaret

Hi Margaret, (other members can also read message)

I guess everyone is so quiet because they are meditating??? Between trying to improve the ETM site and visiting my wife in a nursing home (five years), I guess there is not much time left. BUT I know better - we make time for those things we really want. I really want to make this Community succeed and I am sure everybody else also feels the same. I am a great procrastinator especially since I have retired. I have no excuse since I try to practice Mysticism! I will do better. Margaret, continue using the Forum; we need somebody to keep us on our toes. Thanks Margaret and all.

Serafine

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Every day I come and log on to see if there are any new messages, and everyone is so quiet, I do understand our lives are so full and buisy but there is a very hungry person inside me,I am also getting discouraged with my own self I never have anything very philosophical to say.I wish we could have more interaction a joining of minds to keep us going when it gets tough,well love to all ,and sincerely hope everyone everywhere is good. Sr Margaret.

Serafine I can truly identify with you as a nurse I know and empathise with you I wish your wife well and hope she is well cared for and will pray for you to recieve strength as I need this website to stay connected and hope you never feel its a lost cause.I am a beginner and feel a major calling in my studies I am so frustrated with Time!!! time to sytudy time to do all we would like to amidst it all I feel a strong calling to do more and do better. If I can ever help let me know.With Love and wishes of strength and peace,Sr.margaret

I have often asked myself the same question: why doesn't the conversation sustain itself? I actually made a project of trying to get the convesrsation going about a month ago. Ergo all the postings I made over a period of two weeks. I am a professional writer and editor, and I put my best effort into writing some postings that raised interesting questions and put intriguing ideas out there to bounce around. There was some activity for a while, but the moment I stopped contributing, the conversation died. I'll do my best to stir things up now and again, but I also have a lot on my plate. Three children, a full time job, Rosicrucian studies and writing ambitions are enough to keep anyone more than busy. But, I'd also like to see this forum serve the purpose of being a real community. I loved it when Soror Margaret and I bounced the ball across the net a few times. I feel we got to know a little about each other, and shared valuable life lessons with one another. So, I plan to be here for the long haul, but I may fade in and out occasionally.

Margaret,
I understand very well, the frustrations, one can feel after discovering this website, leaving many messages, and having few replies. I have been a member here for nearly a year, and have tried to leave inspiring and helpful messages that all students of mysticism could enjoy. Since my own experience with mysticism is extensive and varied, I thought that other students would be helped, and we all could learn from each other. Perhaps I intimidate some students, but that is not my intention. Sometimes, I think Serafine is the only one reading my messages.(for which I am truly grateful.) If I am discouraged, think of Serafine, who is doing this out of the goodness of his heart, and gets little support.
I had decided several months ago, to do what I can to help Serafine, make this site a success, I feel the Embark TO Mysticism site is already a success, as it is very comprehensive, and is better than some of the nonsense that is available on the web. It is just this communication arm of the site that needs a shot in the arm. The Mystical Quest can be a lonely one at times, and hearing from others who have similar interests, can help counteract that. I will try to continue to post messages that will help others and perhaps stimulate a response.
Love to all.
Gary

I did my part to generate controversy. Now I am in a pivotal part of my life and I seem to be tested daily and I don't have a lot of time to think. I hope I am making the right decisions but some people are getting very angry at me. It isn't easy to exist out there and maintain your morals and character too.

I hope I pass all my tests. When the mind blanks or feels threatened logic takes a back seat to what ever "feels right". Plus I tend to see things as higher goals or experiences that "make it all worthwhile" even when so much sadness and animosity remains at the fringes begging to ruin everything.

I can't belive I came this far just to loose it all but a runner runs his best untill the race is ever. I am still in the running.

>george