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Re: Re: The Wall

There was an admonition given many years ago by H. Spencer Lewis that went something like this: "I would discourage none but superior men and women from becoming true Rosicrucians". I guess that was thrown out endlessly to the neophytes and most of us just sloughed it off. We were so exited we didnt think about failure!



Later I thought how dishonest A.M.O.R.C was to entice us with promises of untold power and put the limitations in fine print that you couldnt much expect to accomplish this outside of many lifetimes. Then I thought I was hypercritical to act so juvenile when I was the one to proclaim I was one of the "elect" that was in it for LONG HAUL. I vacillated between wanting the finest perfection and hoarding the few ugly crumbs I had accumulated. To the age old question of "am I worthy?" I merely shouted "I don't deserve to be teated like this!".



From dichotomy came duality. Life stunk. I said so and others reluctantly shrugged off their denial. I spouted "change is inevitable" and that verily redefined life to whatever I could make it. Experience turned to bliss. But there was always one catch: the wall. Living in the physical world always has physical limitations. Even if you could do anything you couldnt do EVERYTHING. Something has to go eventually because it isnt worth the effort or it contradicts and that also includes spirituality.



You can only expect so much progress in one direction before you must allow the rest to catch up. That is why I oft sound like a cynic or a sour puss. But I didn't invent those rules and I didn't think anybody could break them without failure.



Sanity is it's own reward. To THAT I put no limitations. Everything else can only be measured - not as infinite goals - but merely as personal milestones. And that can be pretty frustrating if you had your heart set on a one mile race and you arn't allowed more then 20 or 30 feet before you are finished ...



Opps: pardon me - I have to go. Mother is dieing and yet afraid to go. Her lifetime wall was set WAY back but at what cost to the other walls? Heres your prunes and hot water bottle and I can't help it if you can't breath ...I can't help ......can't help .......can't .....can't .......can't do everything .....sorry ......sorry .......







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