It seems like ages ago and yesterday I did my Rosicrucian studies. Yesterday because I have an exellant memory. Ages ago because I remember too much I would rather forget. Understanding may come years from the event though.




After more then a decade now I am just beginning to realize what the experiments were ment to accomplish. I suppose I could try again but that defeats the very purpose of change: as the alchemist I am the experiemt myself. It is much to easy to fake success when you know what to look for.




I will still try to enjoy life for the moment, creating a life that is enjoyable to myself and the others. My motives are still suspect. I don't think success in the occult should be any different then success any where else. My goals are therefore not so much to manipulate things with my mind as to see better goals in the first place for that is only what makes it all worthwhile....